I feel the desperation of being broke today. I did not check my wallet before going out to church. When I reached the church, there was some people selling books. I found two titles on sex and teenagers which I wanted to buy badly and decided to buy them after mass. We have collections during mass whereby a bag is passed around for us to drop any amount of money inside. Usually, I just drop a couple of bucks as I am really not earning a sen, right? So, when the bag reached me, I took out my wallet and found a LOT of papers inside. *sigh* Tesco’s RM1 vouchers x 7 pieces, credit cards slips, receipts and one RM50 note.
The bag is held by the warden (I think that’s name of the persons who volunteer to go around?) and it was right in front of my nose. I hesitated. And hesitated. Do I take that RM50 and drop it? And left me no money at all? What if I got caught by the errr…’authorities’ for running a red light and I have no money to belanja kopi? Then, I will be in deep shit. I like the security of having at least RM20-RM30 in my wallet whenever I am driving.
Pulling in a deep breath, I put in my last ringgit. I want to be like the widow Jesus mentioned in the Bible. The widow who gave away her last coin. Ha ha ha, not exactly, I am a damn rotten person because God says if you give, give quietly, not even your right hand knows what your left hand give. But here I am, telling the internet world I donated money wor. Like very big deal like that. Tsk, tsk, tsk, Lilian, go stand in a corner.
That’s not my point. Towards the end of the mass, Father Joe Stephen of St. Francis Xavier Church of PJ told us about his book. (will blog about it after I read it). I want to buy, I want to buy. But dey, I have no more money.
So, I became the wicked woman. I stole two angpows which I was supposed to give to my children’s godsisters. I used the money to buy the book because I am afraid I wouldn’t be able to get it after Father Joe Stephens returned to PJ. And told the girls that I will hutang (owe) the angpows and give them before CNY is over. That made me a thief of children’s angpows.
Earthtone and Twinsmom – errr…did two of you asked me whether I got anything good to blog after church? Is this good enough? Oklah, I am not so bad la. I gave several unexpected angpows to uncles and aunties and that’s why I was short of angpows. And I gave to John too and told him I love him. Somemore, I am now practising Beethoven’s 9th Symphony in my choir. Wah…you all must come to Penang and listen to Bart playing the organ and 5xmom singing. We rocks, right Bart?