I still doubt the existance of any GOD at all in this world..i mean, not only Jesus, but also
Buddha…..i dunno what to believe or how to believe…..this is
hard…u know, i mean, how do u know if they exist??how to
believe….what to believe….
The above is an email from a Chinese girl. A few simple questions she forwarded to me. I told her she is not the first person who asked me. I am not a learned person, able to preach about Christianity or Buddhism. But I am not entirely stupid either.
Before I go on, note that I am blogging this merely as my views and it is meant for W who asked me. I am not soliciting any learned person views. I do not want to hear anything on Buddhism or Christianity or anyone telling me if what I intepret is wrong. I don’t give a shit. Don’t Psalm me or question my views on Buddhism. If you think this is religiously sensitive, then go flush your head down the toilet and give a good scream.
I know where I stand and I know where I am going. Amen.
Doubting existence of God
I do that all the time too. Just like I doubt our Government, my parents, teachers, spouse, children, friends and even my ownself. But what matters is I acknowledge that out there, someone has to be responsible for me, live or die. And who is better to trust than some huge, almighty being that everyone called God?
And there is nothing that irks God than people who insisted for Him to jump out of thin air and do the samba or joget or something miraculous like parting the seas to prove that He is there. Same as me. If I tell my kids I am going to buy something for them the following weekend, I get annoyed too if they ask me from Monday to Friday if I am going to really do that.
Ok, still doubt? Never mind, look around the world. Look at people flocking to mosques, temples, churches, datuk kongs and all other places of worship. Do you think all these people are brainless, with nothing in themselves but clockworks tune to move towards these buildings? Something must have prompted them to go and build all these marvellous, magnificent buildings.
For e.g. Hungry Ghost Festival. Do you think they exist? Yes, otherwise, why do you think the Taoists never got fed up if they see nothing and no improvement and yet every year, bring on the sexy girls to dance and sing (as in opera and koh tai). Wait, don’t accuse me of any syirik (devil) practice ok? The Taoists have their belief and their own set of rules. Don’t question further.
Jesus or Buddha, do they exists?
Of course! How else do you think our world stay sane? Religion provide the straight road. Yeah, yeah, it cause wars too, I know.
Buddha is older than Jesus. Buddha lives in another continent, Jesus another.
The world is big, dey. So, how is God going to organise the world if He sent only one manager? (I know, we cannot use manager but I am explaning in layman language, ok?) So, as far as I am concerned, they existed, without doubt. But it is not the person Buddha or Jesus that matters.
It is their teachings.
BTW, before my young friend here confused, in Buddhism, they don’t believe in God. They believe on some complicated explanations which I cannot comprehend till today. (now, I am not being disrespect wukay? My IC stated I am a Buddhist and if any tongkua-taufoo, I will be buried by some strangers with Buddhist rites wukay?)
Sort of like you are in charge of your own destiny. Whereas in Christianity and Islam (and other religions which I am not quoting) they believe in God. Yes, there is only one God.
Back to Jesus, yes, he was born 2,000 years ago, died and resurrected. That is to live again. And His Holy Spirit is in each of us, well I mean those who believe in Jesus.
Who, how, when, what, which
It is not for us to choose. As far as I am concerned, God decides. He must have sorted our eggs in the incubators, labelled us J, C, I, B, T and all the little alphabets, you know, like the nasi lemak wrapper with Ikan, Udang, Telur like dat? So, who is going to be what is pretty fixed. When you hear the heart tugging that you love Jesus more, then, you open your heart to it and God bless, you will follow Jesus. And if you think you prefer being a free thinker and has your own sanity to pull through life and its storms, then be a free thinker. No one can forced you into any religion.
In closing, if anyone of you want to hear more about Christianity feel free to comment below. But don’t ever preach anything to me, thank you very much.
(Flame-retardent : I am a Catholic Christian and I believe in God, the Father Almighty and the Lord Jesus. And I embrace people of other faiths with the same mutual respect.)