Day 3 only and I am already struggling. Humans can be so weak. I am only mid-way through my reflections. With the school holidays here, my atm not working, there seems to be so many things that I want to do except spending quiet time reading the Bible. But seeking solitude, I must.
The reflections for Day 3 in the ‘homework’ given to me.
On the day of Pentecost, Jesus’ disciples were gathered together in one room in prayer, and the Holy Spirit which Jesus promised came on them. From that moment on, they were changed men.
“When Pentecost day came round, they were all filled with the Holy Spirit, and began to speak in tongues as the Spirit gave them the gift of speech.” (Acts 2:1-4)
If there is one good thing about me as a Christian, it is my naivety. I embraced everything with a childlike wonder and eager to do just about anything. Someone told me that my ‘kampung-ness’ is refreshing. :O)
About two years ago, our Catholic church has some prayers sessions for healing. I must state here Catholic to differentiate the denomination from other Christians because not all Christians practice prayers in tongues. I did not know exactly why I need healing for but nevertheless, queued up because people are queuing up. (the mob effect) I told myself maybe they can heal broken hearts.
So, they put me on a chair and Uncle Ernie, a nice, friendly, warm guy put his hands on my head. And someone was standing behind me. Both of them started making some noises in languages I was trying to catch. Within a few minutes (maybe less than 3 minutes) I was knocked out flat. As in tertidur (deep sleep). A warmth enveloped me. I can hear the buzzes of the voices but my limbs were totally weak.
I had lunged into this with total surrender as I do not know what I am in for and yet, I had total belief that I am in for something good, I experienced a ‘rest in the Spirit’. Later, Auntie Maureen (Uncle Ernie’s wife) told me that for a first timer, I have the ability to rest in the Spirit in very short time.
Does this spook some of you? I suppose so because I too was freaked out to know that I can be knocked out so easily. But if one makes references to the Bible, speaking in tongues is one of the gifts from God. Back in the olden days, the people around Jesus are from different region and they speak different languages. These people who prayed for me are people whom had been assigned the gift of speaking in tongues.
How do they get this gift? By prayers and true faith. They have the commitment to spend their time healing others by way of volunteering their time to attend group prayers etc. And they have to spend time, praying in tongues in their daily life.
As for me, I am not able to afford time away from home and will gladly receive the gifts of writing and counselling instead. (there are many gifts from God like teaching, leadership, caring for the sick etc) So, I pray that the good Lord will give me the gift of writing and counselling. Two things that I am doing well.
During my seminar last week (another sesssion this Saturday), I surrender my will to God to let me be able to be a good mother. And in wanting to be a good mother, I know that I have to be able to reach out not only to my sons but to other people of all ages. I have the vision that if we are going to fight the evils surrounding our future generation, we have to immerse ourselves into their world. (a step into the dark side…..) That world is the internet. So, I hope I can speak in the tongues of the internet.
In a way, I know I have made small steps by way of my parenting website and forum and also this blog. Many mothers have been inspired to start blogging. I hope that one day, these mothers will grow along with their children and therefore, taken a foothold on the internet, providing a fighting force against the evils of the net.
Lord, I pray that You will humble my heart, providing me a clear mind and path to strive to achieve Your will, glorify Your name and never, ever allow pride and selfishness to take hold of me. I pray for all the broken hearts and hurting people and may they seek comfort in You in their times of trouble. Amen.