Thanks to Jeff, my church member who left a comment in Christian-journey, I only realised that I should start my INTENDED vegetarian fast since yesterday. But by the time I know, I had walloped roasted pork rice, ate smoke salmon sandwiches and cooked salted fish/minced pork claypot rice.
This morning, I woke up and wonder if I can manage to go through the whole season of Lent by going vegetarian. Ok, lacto-ovo vegetarian where I stay off meats and seafoods. My willpower is not there this year. Because I have two pigs’ stomach in my fridge and too thor th’ng is my favourite. I have two dozens most delicious lor bak my sister-in-law made for me. I am supposed to cook and belanja my sisters and nephews and nieces this Saturday.
It will kill me if I can see but not touch. How can leh? And I am not going to compromise with ‘stay off meat but eat fish’. I want to go through the whole nine yards just eating vegetarian foods and eggs and milk.
A huge struggle.
With my sons teasing me about eating steaks and hamburgers, how am I going to fight off the temptation? I am not doing it to gain brownies points from Jesus, ok? Because I think if we do something with some returns in mind, it is not sincere and sure go to hell for being so calculative like that. The only reason is to test my willpower. I managed last year.
Forbidden fruits taste sweetest. I think I will take it one day at a time. I only eat some egg sandwich, chocolates and mee mamak minus the sotong so far. I will stay away from food porn and just stare at fruits and vegetables. Plus chocolates and icecream, of course.
You can do it, Lilian. Now that you have blogged it, at least a thousand (hehehe, belagak nyer) people knew about it so you got no place to run and hide. You have no choice but to do it. Vegetarian. Yes, I can! So, who wants to be my Mat Skoding to peep on me and see if I do steal a bite of the sausage, a nibble of the crispy siew bak’s skin, a mouthful of the medium rare juicy steak, a whiff of the baked crabs…Arrgggh…torture. But I am going to do it. I think I can I think I can I think I can. For fourty days only.