I don’t know how to break this to you guys. It is almost embarrassing to say the least. A few buddies closed me had been ignored by me. I got over sensitive with things. Ignorant readers got flamed over nothing. Long time readers get it too. I can blame it on PMS. I can blame it on menopause (which blardy hell I am wayyyy not qualified yet, ok?) I have terrible mood swings.
But recently, I had been getting nauseous, giddy and all those shitty feelings. I don’t mean to ignore some of you on MSN. I don’t mean to show my temper. I shouldn’t act like a blog diva and tell you guys, “Like I care I have one less reader.”
I am really sorry and hope you can all understand my feelings. It is not easy for me. I am 43 years old. By the time my child is 10 years old, I will be 53. By the time he is old enough to marry at 30 years, I will be long dead and can’t see my grandkids.
My last pregnancy with Matthew was terribly hard. How am I going to cope with this new one?
Please don’t congratulate me yet. I am awfully afraid that I may not end up with what I should. As you know pregnancy for a woman my age is awfully dangerous. But what to do….
Earl-ku and SK asked if I want a girl this time? Yes, why not? I love pink so much…
If you are my long time, understanding buddies, please stand-by me. Don’t laugh. If you are seriously touched with my news, maybe you can say something nice without giving me pressures? I hope the pregnancy will be smooth sailing……