When does sacrifice ends and selfishness take over?
When does low self-esteem starts and humbleness rules?
When does patience ends and stupidity reigns?
When does confidence peaks and ego spoil it all?
These are all the gray lines in our lives. Have you wondered about them?
For example, I read about this mother who said she sacrificed 15 years of driving an old car so that she can get her daughter through college. It is sacrifice. But now, when she said that, does it sounds a little selfish that she may be putting undue pressures on her daughter to ‘payback’?
And my son asked me. Being humble is a good virtue but when does low self-esteem rears its ugly head? Can one gets too humble to the extend of being short selling one’s self and in the end, suffer from an esteem problem?
Yet again, it is good to have patience. It is the wise and mature way of dealing with things. But when we keep our patience, we may end up being stupid. Of being treated like a doormat.
Then, confident character is to be applauded. But sometime, ego took over and the person become an asshole instead.
Which is why, during yesterday mass’s something struck me. In the letter to the Galatians, St. Paul reminded us Christians that self-indulgence and freedom are at two opposing ends. So, it asked us, when does one do something for self-glorification and when does one charged ahead doing things as the Spirit (i.e. Jesus) demands? And I like this verse alot, a whole awful lot…
As for those agitators, I wish they would go the whole way and emasculate themselves!
emasculate means to cut off the balls
So, my point is, the gray line is always very hard for us to discern with our human heart and mind. It is not easy for us to tell the borders of one end to the other side. We may think we are humble but in actual fact, we are in deep shit with our esteem. We may say we are sacrificing our own happiness for our kids, but in actual fact, we are pressuring them unnecessarily. Or we may think we are being wise and patience but the world is laughing at our stupidity for being taken advantage off. Some people may think you are an asshole with a big ego but it could just be a show of self-confidence.
Bah! I also cannot draw the gray lines in my lives. What about you?